March 20, 2012

March 20, 2012


Like most things, I'm a little hesitant to get started because once I start, I know my all or nothing mindset will take hold. I'm also not much of a writer. I was always one of those students that wrote dry boring papers but got a good grade because I wrote in the exact format as instructed. Very clinical...no heart. So my dilemma in starting this blog was to figure out how i was going to write it. Was I going to write it knowing that i would have a broad audience meaning a certain amount of mental censorship before it hit the page or was I going to write it as a stream  of consciousness, exposing all the frailties and vulnerabilities of my personal psyche. Well after a pre-class yoga room discussion; (kind of like a couch session) I decided that it would be best if I applied some screening to the voices of all my little demons that run around in my head. Certainly, i'll try to be a little more enjoyable than reading the manual to your car hope to even chronicle not only what the daily life of living in the bubble is like, but also how I am dealing with the stress of it all, the highs and lows etc. 


So just a little note on where I'm at with only 24 days until I head out to LA.  Wow, it is creeping up ever so quickly like a snowball rolling down hill. (Only i would make reference to a snowball when it is 70 degrees on Cape Cod on the first day of spring). I haven't really stressed out about the training, which is so unlike me when I going somewhere with little control. I know enough about teacher training to know it is going to be wicked hard with some extreme highs and lows. Since I can't predict what will cause the lows there is nothing i can do to try and mitigate them so I just have to accept whatever happens as it happens. It is so unlike me! I just have to keep my mantra handy..."don't let anybody steal your peace then you are the loser"


Stuff like food, and lack of sleep, totally depleting my body all niggle in the back of my mind as things that will break me down at some time during the training. I just am trying to accept that I will have moments of breakdown and it is about bouncing back, not trying to avoid. All these thoughts run through my head. 


Of course, i'm generally a non-social person until i get to know people and get totally overwhelmed by too much stimuli so being around 400 gregarious, social, friendly people with different personalities and communication styles will probably be my biggest challenge the first couple of weeks. 


I have made it up to spine twist on the dialogue and go back over and over and over the postures I already learned. Not anywhere near perfect but I'm pretty comfortable with having memorized it pretty close so i can work on delivery during posture clinics. 


Well my first post. The difficult thing about blogging is that I don't have time to go back and edit so what you see is what you get...bad spelling, grammar, and a runon of nothingness.