June 16, 2012 Final Thoughts

June 16, 2012 Final Thoughts I'm in the middle of packing and waiting for laundry to finish. We have our graduation ceremony at 3:00pm but things are pretty much winding down around here. I thought I'd take a few monuments to reflect on the journey...well the journey so far because if there is one thing that these nine weeks have taught me is that, this is just the start of a long journey well for the rest of my life and one who loves and believes in the power of Yoga and for me Bikram yoga in particular. I have learned that these nine weeks is just a taste of what I will discover about the yoga, about myself, about life. It did not present answers only the awareness that it is all about your own discovery and your own self realization. There is no perfect path, there is no set time frame it is as individual as snowflakes. We are each on our own journey. But what really makes this Bi,ram teacher training so very very special is that while we are each on our own individual journey, we are now part of a very special community of Bikram yoga teachers that share in this experience and in the bond that ties us with the love of the yoga and the compulsion to help others as the yoga has helped us. It is so marvelously beautiful and powerful Nd really indescribable. Sure we all got a plenty short with our patience and our disappointment in not getting the "answers" but I think in the end we realize that the answers are within us as individuals and as our community. The final class was amazing and I got to share it with many special people from my group around me. I am anxious to be home and start the next phase of my life, literally. Maybe I am feeling a little sentimental as I took a class this morning and have not eaten yet and feel pretty wasted...the good kind of wasted plus I'm packing and well just letting my mind wander and think. But I do think this has changed me a little. I am who I am and love who I am in my elemental makeup...work on being a better human every day and still work on not being so hard on myself. But what I did learn and hope to bring a little bit more into my life is to take more leaps without planning out every outcome and being sure that every potential thing that might happen is planned for. Be willing to do things with the chance that sometimes shit happens but that's OK too and part of life's experiences, sometimes the best part. To travel more and not just talk about it. To do more of the little things that give me pleasure with the same commitment and discipline that I put into the things that require that discipline...my yoga, running, my work. To retire sooner and not worry about having enough to retire...just do it and know it will be OK cause life is short and there is so much more to discover about myself and about the world. I have loved living with 400 people that come from everywhere and see the world through their unique prisms. some of the people I have come to know live much more in the moment and I love that...I know I will never be that type of person completely but I am going to try to shift from being 100% nit living in the moment to more like 75%-25%. CARPE DIEM...CAPE VITAM